Thursday, April 30, 2009

Get out as soon as you can...

They f**k you up, your mum and dad
They may not mean to, but they do.
They fill you with the faults they had
And add some extra, just for you.

But they were f**ked up in their turn
By fools in old-style hats and coats,
Who half the time were soppy-stern
And half at one another's throats.

Man hands on misery to man.
It deepens like a coastal shelf.
Get out as early as you can,
And don't have any kids yourself.

Saturday, April 25, 2009

fools

fool...one of the worst things you can be called. I know what you might being saying, "theres far worse that you can be called". I think not. A fool is being called ignorant, stupid, nothing, etc. A fool is like your being called every bad name out there. A fool is a person that does stupid thing and doesn't regret them. A fool is someone you looks to crime and danger. A fool never cares, never loves, and never shows his true colors.

Friday, April 24, 2009

Bullying

A little boy killed himself because of bullying. He told his mother that he goes through it everyday. He says that he gets called gay all the time and other names. One day the little boy came home from school a little happier than usual, he had a straight A's and B's report card. when he showed his report card he went upstairs and closed the door. His mom went to make dinner. When the dinner was done the little boy's sister called him down to go eat. When the little boy didn't answer his mom and sister went upstairs to see why. When they looked in his room they saw him hanging from the ceiling by his belt. His sister and his mother saw this. Everyone in his family was traumatized. They didn't know what to think. his mother went to go ask his best friend a few days after to go see why he did this. His best friend said that the little boy said "I am tired of complaining about these guy they just keep messing with me". Tired of talking, I think to his teachers, counselors and nobody is doing anything -- and the best way out is death." That is what the little boy said to his best friend the day he died.

Please if you know someone being bullied stick up for them. You don't know how seriously it can affect the. Every human has an edge. You need to be careful not to push them off.

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Okay so there is this person that I love with all my heart. I was talking to them for awhile and they are just like me. I swear I had never met anyone that I could open up to like this. I love this person with all my heart. I made the biggest mistake though... I told this person how I felt. By doing that I wrecked my whole life. Everything came crashing down. I never thought my life could change that fast. I cry now every night because of this person. I poured my heart out and i will never do that again. Next time I will just hold it all in.
My life is still falling. Its almost like and bottomless pit whenever I think i have reached rock bottom I just keep falling. I hate it. I've tried everything I cant get back up, I'm scared to death. I'm in tears. I need help. But wherever I turn its not there. Its just black...

Pray for me please...

Friday, April 3, 2009

Blindness

There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she was blind. She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her. She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry her boyfriend.

One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her and then she could see everything, including her boyfriend.
Her boyfriend asked her, "now that you can see the world, will you marry me?" The girl was shocked when she saw that her boyfriend was blind too, and refused to marry him.

Her boyfriend walked away in tears, and later wrote a letter to her saying..... "Just take care of my eyes dear." i'll always love you forever..

Biggest fear

when i Ly awake at night thinking about you. I get really scared that something might happen to you. I don't know why I do I just do. I wake up and start to cry because I have the worst dreams ever about you dying or getting severely hurt.I don't want that to happen, because well, I love you.
Another big fear that I have is sort of like the same thing except your not dying just falling for another person. In my thoughts when i Lay awake at night it feels almost real you falling for another person. but I hope that it will never happen.

Weirdness

Well I guess I am really weird to all of these other people. i don't mean to be mean. I just say hi a lot. But I guess that they get offended when i say hi to much and that i should just not even say hi to them. because when i do I hear a few days later that that person is talking bad about me behind my back. So then I just stop talking to them. Then that person comes up to me and says hi. Then I say hi back, then i am back to saying hi hundreds of times. i really don't mean to say hi so much its whenever I am around this person I just seem to say hi because I don't know what else to say. I just get really nervous. I don't usually get nervous I guess its just only with you. Well your just something special to me, that's why I say hi so much.